Destin round 2 today . Hereeee we goooo .
Would someone please tell me what the fuck I’m suppose to do with the rest of my life ? Like just put it in a box and gift wrap it for me . Do I take this promotion , do school online , and get my own place to live , or should I stay a shift manager , stop giving a fuck , and just do school , or should I actually go to school somewhere way the fuck away from here ? Because I just don’t know . I know I wanna do cool shit with my life , but Zaxbys is tying me down to the max . I wanna go out and see the world , do everything I possibly can . I wanna fucking cool job . Like , I’d kill to live in Destin . Even if I barely scraped by , I’d be okay with it . Because the beach is beautiful , and there’s thousands of fucking cool people to meet , and there’s just always something interesting going on . Like , I even downloaded an app on my phone to search through every job listing possible to maybe find a cool job down in the gulf . I’ve never felt so out of place in my own fucking house in all of my life . Someone needs to help me . And don’t tell me do what I think is best , cas I always seem to pick wrong and put my ass right back to this spot . My moms a pain in the ass to talk to about this too . Like nothing I do makes her happy , unless I’m doing something making lots of money . That’s not what life’s about , and it irritates me to the bone whenever she says it . That’s my rock in this world , but I wanna be happy with what I do . Not miserable with a lot of money . Lots of money usually means no free time . So why do that ? That’s no fun . Ughhhhhh . I just wanna sleep , but this is consuming my soul right now .
Found a gem of a video that Caleb took of me and Dayna and Rikki . I don’t know how we even functioned today .
